self-motivated to live
The next few days will be solid wall of video game footage and conversation. And then? Freedom. Freedom surrounded by power cords. In spite of my desire for untethered electronic roaming, I am glad the GameBoy Advance SP is rechargeable.
All my talk of technology neatly obfuscates a confusing life, busy with travel and unsure of standing. I'd recently considered myself a careful man, not accustomed to purchasing and repurchasing things lost on the road. But I'm losing things as I move. Even when I was sitting still, I was only preparing for a chance to shuck burdens, so I could feel relaxed as I age. Movement and change once still seem liberating.
Deadlines focus my freelance writing - knowing in advance how much time I have to complete a project. I'm discovering that deadlines in life are mostly unassigned - you really have to be self-motivated to live.