So down, so up. And I watch myself crackle with new birth energy wow so sad I was! To watch myself for hours drivelling moaning crying. Basic questions were on the tip of my thick tongue; of course the answers have been rewritten throughout our time. And I have read some of them, at least in pocket book form.

But this is something remarkable in this moment - the elation strength I feel now it's something I think to savor. But I should just observe - as down, so up.