yesterday posted late,
due to technical difficultieshoward, still grieving over business and friendshipmy usual contentious place loyalty
is lip chewing like I've never seen
as he bills it
he was weakened,
I came from a place of compassion
to make good for this great man,
stuck I, seeking to make my words strong
I felt weak, divided
and I admitted my place of unknowing
the results, howard thought
were wise.he's playing devil's advocate with my celebrity
I'm a promiscuous publisher
I put my drafts out there to see
howard isn't sure he'd want folks to read
what he wrote when he was 23 "the war of the gurus"
not writing he's proud of
a dizzying array of adjectives
"but hey, maybe that's who you are,
let it all hang out."
a tool, power to distribute my message
but my old soul voice sometimes gets lost when I'm doing the justin show
better I should refine my wisdom, my craft, and let the celebrity wane than the other way aroundhe recommendswe lunch with his mom, Geraldine computerization and controversy value conflicts and social choices edited by rob kling
I take further advantage of his graphics tablet
thrice handwrite a lower case and capital alphabet
that I might make my page more personal.
an intuitive soul who thinks everything is wonderful just marvelous.
howard's daughter mamie
spends at least one day a week with her grandma since she was born.
Geraldine asks me what I want to do
when I get out of college what do I call myself
I guess, like howard
I'm a communicator
in the afternoon,
he asks me to linger on
that he might walk with his daughter
and later we'll tweak some web pages
like we used to.
he remembers an aikido demonstration in mill valley
I should really check out
but I stayed in a familiar time
I'll miss this some day.