who is a mother fucker?
starting to smell like it
old farts crusty snot rags immersion
but then when I'm ready,
I can emerge.
being sick,in shamanism
I take longer to walk to places not a bad thing.
I can't stay awake
for more than three hours
I mentioned my consumption
I seem to talk about my drug use or my sex life
in every class
drinking a noxious potion therein
kava and valerian root (organic valium)
to take the achy edge off
during break, outside,
I found beera little of this,Rabbi Howard Alpert speaks on sex and religion
a little of that,
my appetites easily whetted.
today was like spring
sixty degrees and shedding clothing
on the lawn
I love skirt-wearing weather
rya sed I haven't learned to sit in one
(cuz she could see up mine)
what makes her think I haven't learned?
jerry's got a strong constitution
how do you do it jerry?
don't tell anyone you're sick,
cuz we are animals, you know
animals prey on the sick.
he sez he's kidding.
how do we direct our physical energy
towards the special, the holy, not the gluttanous?
holy, kadosh, sex is physical pleasure
furthering emotional intimate bonds
that are inherently monogamous.
twelvth century Jewish scholar
said there should be no open windows during sex
not because people might see or hear, but because the couple might be distracted.
gives a whole new perspective on fuck soundtracks and porno videos.
non-holy physical union
could be borne of pathology
or could lead there
not a good idea.
as long as the sex is consentual,
gossip is a worse crime,
now is this the way life works?
it is an ideal.
so I've got to try harder
to avoid suffering
(didn't get to ask about sexual healing but I did emerge with this metaphor:
sex is like concrete between people
if you lay it down,
put it out,
don't put no building, no bricks on top of it
it gets crusty, impedimentIn high school,
I was president, on the board of trustees
edited school papers, literary magazines.
virtual community and all that,
we had our first face to face meeting tonight and we decided stuff.