personal mythology.

dry eyeballs on the greyhound

stefanie is typing behind me
she just woke up chat strong sleep breath
like if I woke up next to her
people can claim you with their smells
I remember eating out mariah, and having her taste on my toothbrush for weeks following
got to pick and choose them smells significant
gots to be agreeable if its so pervasive

then again, maybe its like the greyhound - you just get used to it.

drivin through rock hewn roads

landing at the antique mall outside of columbia, missouri
find a book of chinese/indian literature, american from the fifties inside
100 proverbs, some wisdom from "mr. tut-tut" in the back
do you have a photocopy machine?

yes, her son sez
I'd like to pay to photocopy these last few pages

I'm sorry, she sez, looking up at my height from her stooped middle aged beef consumption

copyright violation.

I copied a few of the best down for you here:

all the universe is an inn; search not specially for a retreat of peace: all the people are your relatives; expect therefore troubles from them.

- Mr. Tut-Tut (translation: Lin Yutang)

arrive at ndn
jean in womanly glory with stef a younger in her field along
wrote eighties ms. cover story on diane sawyer, do women change the news?
of course they do
check out the burning bed story would never have been told

I promptly sat at a computer while they did errands
didn't get much work done on an inconstant connection but I did talk to mom, colin

over cajun dinner from trends to feminism
at 76 cents to every mans dollar earned
women are almost now becoming equality
reversing years of power disadvantage

a temporarily historical anomaly, perhaps
higher male birthrate in china

I made an arguement for scale
based primarily, if not solely, on my perceptions of the nature of things
that is there is always equal parts good and bad in something, power distribution
and so, if women did not have power in the professional sphere, or political power or legal power
they had power imperceptible
to us today, right, because it's power the sort of not delineated in history books

I mean half the population could not have been subjugated for that many years

the "oppressed" have power that we won't aknowledge
like black folks is subjugated as women have been
from their position they command fashion, language, music, athletics

not every black person is involved in this equasion

not every black person is so advantaged dissed

or from my own life, a summer spent in san francisco
I worked for wired, chandra was doing her own shit
my life was working out, professionally, I was stimulated, directed, thriving,
her no so at the time, extroverted
so from professional sphere of power had I
her not so
but in the home across the table in the bed in the car in the store
I was seldom match her will direction stimulation or lack thereof

these things be far complexier than we give credit

one in three women in the US has been raped

jean replies

I don't have anything to say

except that she faught battles and bears scars that will not be 'rased by relativism.

jean drives broad buik through the mossouri outlands bugs splatter like nebraska
smells like country fresh air

skunk, she sez

log cabin town with bar running since mid eighteen hundreds
quinine pill stopover before westward ho
gutter pavings laid by slaves

home with a judge husband, nice
got my own basement

the great mistake was satellite television
I ended up watching interview with the vampire
is this what anne rice writes like?

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