random web searching
every day is struggle and doubt
calling rya to encourage early morning web class attendance
she's dropping out
but I can not.
what if people don't love what you do
when the shit comes down?
you keep doing it.
or you die.
so I ask for feedback,
because resolution is the goal, not victory
maybe you should teach counter construction but you're more philosophical
if she'd do the readings, any readings
write something, make more media
she'd have something to say
it wouldn't be pointless discussion
she'd be invested.
we had six come this morning
understandable the numbers are dwindling
it's nearing finals time
I'm still learning.
found kate wolf
sometimes this place is totally unpreceedentedpracticed my ravelI went to the library
man, that's hard.
coleman taught me piano theory
I'm countin' notes.
I like little naps
doing early research for text consumption paper
found a great starting bibliography on the net.
a steel drum band in the dining hall
cheesy, you say,
but they had folks dancing in the asiles
I was thinkin' todayone main reason why I came to swarthmoreinstead, I could have been lingering pub nite
no equipment required ice hockey league
you wouldn't think it,
but the geeks are avid icemen
I was on the worst team,
ate a lot of ice seldom coherent play
nick said I was good at getting up while I was still tumbling down.
a beer in my hand secondhand smoking hoarsin' over inaudible noise scopin' hopin' for some thighs open.
each has their side effectslate night return,
not dehydrated now
but achin' pain each place I fell and just all over.
there's a guy from georgia
sitting in the lounge
he likes to make his own tools
chisels from dental scrapers.
folks keep askin' me what I'm goin' do after school
if I move to san fran
work on the internet
I won't be very grounded
neverending navel gazing
got to keep working, living
in non-media production contexts. maybe mcdonald's. maybe software sales.